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Im so god damn bored lol. Its eviction night on bigbrother oooh.

My finger hurts =[=[=[=[=[=[ it stings real real real real real bad =[=[=[=[=[=[=[=[=[

Grrrr i feel so fat lol i ate like half a bar of galaxy and now i feel fat. but i feel so so so so so so ill =[ i just want to go to bed and sleep. But i need to watch bigbro to see who goes lol.

ooooooh bitch fight on it lol. woop woop bitch fight bitch fight bitch fight lol.

how come everyone in bigbrother apart from teddy's girl are really weird? i love teddy's girl she reminds me of me but im blonde but shes like exactly like me shes really sensitive and sweet to everyone and a bit dumb just like me :D lol.

i have no texts =[

he hasnt text me yet =[

god im bored lol woooo they got alchol lol. i have too lol. but i have becks cuz im soooo coool lol and i have WKD and VK's lol.

Ahhhh how i love those drinks very much and i have them right now =] but im not getting drunk tonight i dont even feel like getting tipsy. Just enough to make me able to sleep.

anyways i cnt think of anything to say lol. luffooo xx

well im bk

watching eastenders and im pretty bored at the min. Im not feeling very well at the moment =[ im feeling rathr ill like i really need a hug like really badly. im really cold and shivvering so bad =[ i might go and play my guitar in a bit. Tho i might just go to sleep because im feeling so ill i just want ben to be here, i feel like i need him so badly. but i no hes out and i no that he will be having fun without me =] and i just hope that i have a text from him later because i really really want to hear from him because i love him more then anything and i dont no what life would be like with out him, i cant get him off my mind. Hes the one and i no he is. Its going to be a year and 2months on monday the 15th. =] he makes me happy that day, happier then anything in the world because he makes me feel perfect and special and that im the best girl ever. And i no that he would never ever leave me =] hes my baby boy forever and ever. And i never want him to go off me even a tiny bit.

Well watching big brother now and im pretty bored. School today sucked i had an arguement with some people and i really dont like people shouting at me it makes me cry and feel weak and sad and really upset. WOOOOWWW they are chanting on bigbro "shilpa out shilpa out" yeahhhhh i hate her shes such a woman weirdo lol.

well im off to sit bored cuz i dont no what else to say so byeeee luffoo xx

hey..

..well me n ben had arguement yesterday but we okay now, hes gone out tonight and i miss him propa loads :( i want him to be here in my arms but i no that hes out having fun, ill hear from him l8a.



i have to go now sorry byee xx

well

in school right this second so not much to do am bored shitless grr lol.

ill write more later

xxx

hmm....

....Im pretty okay today i'm talking to Ben but i got some twat having a go at me for no reason because hes a complete and utter WANKER! But anyways im happy today me and Ben have been getting on well good today, has made me really happy.

So apart from me being all lovey dovey iv had a pretty good day. Iv had my hair done and well my nails are still sexy. Bens told me i look beautiful today so i guess i must be looking good too which is a bonus i guess lol. XD.

Its pretty cold here today again so im wrapped up in my blanket yay!

hmm bens still not back he said brb like 30mins ago :(

anyways nowt else to say.

so cyazzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz xxxx

well..

..this isnt my first post just my others got deleted i was jodjodz but ohwell. Todays been okay i guess, Ben (boyfriend) is revising cuz he got a uni exam tomorrow so im bored. And singing to no doubt lol. And eating celebrations yum yum. Anyone want one?

School on the 10th i really dont want to go i hate it so much i feel so out of place there even tho iv been there for a few years i really dont feel like i fit in and you no when u start a new school and you feel no one likes you? well i feel like that and i feel like no one likes me, they probs do but i really feel like that i hate it i want to move schools so bad just so then maybe i would feel like i fit in a bit more. But my parents wont let me because there isnt any more schools round here. so i guess i will just have to put up with it. Not long left to go now i guess bout 2Years :(

My life is getting better Ben and me are better then ever and well i love him more then ever right now we are so perfect together like HE said...."me+you=perfection" That made me proper happy and smiley. Hes so perfect and everything that i have ever wanted and im pretty sure that me and him are going to last forever he tells me it alot and i no when he says something he means it and he doesnt just say it for the sake of it. I love him so much and i no he loves me more then anything to. Hes my big star and im his little star, and his shortass lol. And his tigger :D

Well right now im sat on my laptop on the sofa all cuddled up in a blanket and on msn but not talking to anyone waiting for ben to come online so about 5:30ish i guess. Its so warm right now yay. And i have chocolate so obviously im going to be happy lol just like any other girl would be. I got the tiara on that me and ben have some private jokes about lol.

Well i had my nails done today to! They my own i dont need false ones but they really pretty my cousin done them because shes a beautition (im not sure how you spell it sorry) and she asked me if she could do my nails because she liked the length of them so said that she wanted to make them look the best they can so she done french manicure on them and put a little butterfly on the thumbs, it looks really pretty and she re-highlighted my hair to. But im not sure weather i like that yet but hey she said that it looked good lol. And shes the beautition so it must look good or maybe shes just saying it to be nice to her FAV cousin hehe.

Ummmmmm im not sure what to rant on about now apart from im bored =[ and i have cold hands again =[ why do i always get cold hands even when the rest of me isnt cold? Im not off out anywhere tonight so im on the comp till about 10ish, oh the joy lol. But i will get to talk to him for a bit maybe he said i would so i guess i will..



anywhoooo not much else to say today so toodles xxxx